Coming Together

It's amazing how when you truly give God time in your life,
Real Time
Quality Time
Sacred Time
He gives ten fold back.

Things have really been coming together for me recently.
I am so grateful to my Father in Heaven.

Indecisiveness

I've been questioning my major a lot recently.

Then I realized that I've never actually been through the list of majors that BYU has to offer.

So I looked.

I wrote down anything that stood out to me.

That felt right.

Here's that list:

Every foreign language I saw is written on it.

Here's my most recent thought: (Thanks Mom)

Major: Spanish Teaching

Minors: English and History

Other: French elective credits with a semester abroad.

Yeah. I like the sound of it.

Advice? Please.

:)

Purity

I'm sick of the melodrama.

I'm sick of reality TV Shows.

I'm sick of desensitized justification.

I'm not judging. I promise.

It just hurts my heart. I don't want to let something so vile into my life.

I just want to let Him in.

I want purity, not reality TV.

Dear Javier,

and all my friends:

In Sonnet 116, William Shakespeare offers a brilliant explication of ideal love. Constant, Unwavering, and Powerful. Forgive me if I'm too poor of a friend to show that.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

This video is one of my favorites: What-Matters-Most

"We Should Not Assume, We Should Let Them Know."

I'm Sorry. I love you.

I love my family. Alot.

Things I Am Afraid Of

(This is not a gift to all of you cruel people out there who have some desire to frighten me. Rather, this is a thoughtful attempt to compile a list of all of my fears, quirks, oddities, etc. in hopes that in the process I may solve some of my problems :)

1. Needles, shots, injections of any kind

2. Walking into a Men's Restroom

3. The Dark

4. Hurting people

5. Losing things (material things, like leaving them somewhere by accident)

6. Losing people (hearts, like leaving them behind, or being abandoned by them)

7. Watching Someone Die

8. The Joker

9. Addictions

10. Evil disguised as good

11. Emotional Manipulation

12. Pride

13. Imperfection (in some things)

14. Making people fall in love with me

15. Being Responsible for/Managing Money

16. My subconscious competitiveness

17. Dressing Immodestly

18. Movies that are almost clean

19. Hospitals

20. Heights

21. The Smell of the Dentist's Office

22. Presenting myself openly for Criticism

23. My Parent's Disappointment

24. Holding Back the Truth from those I love

25. Forever

26. Not loving someone enough

27. Tearing someone away from God

28. Turning away from God

29. Rainbow Colored Goldfish

30. Forgetting

31. Shadows

32. Tripping in High Heels

33. A World without Color

34. Becoming Tone Deaf

35. Life without Romance

36. Knives

37. Close Friends becoming Enemies

38. Being Afraid

Art

I spent over an hour in the art museum today. It's incredible to me how someone can evoke so much emotion with nothing but a canvas and an array of colors.

That's what I want to do with my writing. Some paper, a pen, and all the words in the world. I could really change people.